Im a single mother of 8 who lost her mother at 14. I had my first child @ 18 i was married @ 25 to a man i was with for 10yrs i was divorced a yr later. I have always worked and tryed to do my best but always found myself in bad relationships lookin for love so now i have 8 children and im 38. I have 3 children by a man that does drugs and is in prison. My 10yr old daughters dad was murderd 3 yrs ago and then i have a 17yr old and a 12yrold that have the same dad that never comes around. Then my oldest that is 20 and my son that is 15 have the same dad witch is my ex-husband and i pay him child support($124) and whats funny is i get 5 dollors a month for 3 kids and 70 dollors for my daughter thats dad was killed and have to collect food stamps and still cant make it. I got 3apts that im tryin to get together but im behind on my payments by 1000.00 because i have to decide do i pay a house payment or feed my kids, or do i pay a bill, or do i fix stuff that needs to be done? Im just so lost that i dnt know what to do. Every day i hate to go to the mail box cause im afraid that its gonna be a letter from the housing people saying that i got to move cause im behind on a house payment and if that happens i really dnt know what im going to do cause i have no place to go. I have no family but my kids. I try to hold on cause i know the Lord is good and he will make something happen for me.
